moozic

today has been such a musical day! i was going to take a poll in this journal, earlier, and i still might do that tonight so i won’t give it away now, but it had reminded me of “head over heels” by tears for fears. i own no tears for fears albums! the travesty! thanks to kozmo.com, i fixed that right quick. it was very strange. i rarely buy myself music, and here i found “the best of tears for fears: the millenium collection” for only ten bucks and it was delivered to my office in an hour. artless, inspired by this sudden burst of melodic decadence, kozmoed me cibo matto’s “stereotype a” which arrived in the afternoon. i am a very recent cibo matto convert, thanks to artless and the wonder of mp3s. boingie music....

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Posted on 31 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

help, revisited

i have had a very full day of helping people at work. it’s fun. now i understand why i keep returning to libraria: books and helping people sleuth around for books. maybe i should just limit the help i can give to friends. if it doesn’t have a library of congress control number, i’ll say, i can’t do anything for you. right. like that’d ever happen. for all my whining, i love helping friends, too. even when i don’t know entirely how. even when it ends up being a fruitless, thankless enterprise. although not hearing “thanks for helping” does leave me a bit crestfallen. i noticed just how much i perked up, all day today, when thanked for my effort. it’s a cliché but it’s also true: positive...

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Posted on 30 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

cubicle

i watch the accountants. their cubicles face out to the street, and i peer right in, sight uninterrupted by unsmudged glass. one has a small television set. he watches a sports cable channel, leaning all the way forward until his nose is nearly pressing against the bright red uniforms. now against a shot of pure green grass. now against a face fixed in frustration. the next one has his web browser open. he always wears a white shirt and a dark tie. his web browser is always on msnbc.com. he is always folded forward, elbows on knees, despite the desk right in front of him. the next cubicle is empty yet. the last one is looking back at me as i walk past. i am too confused at this new development to stop looking. he doesn’t smile, or show any indication that he...

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Posted on 30 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

help

time to reel it all back in. i have been spending quite a chunk of my precious, precious free time helping other people. normally it brings me a great deal of joy to do this; normally i don’t overextend myself. tonight i am struggling with pgp. the fact that i am struggling with pgp is disturbing to me, since i’ve used it for years now without incident. tonight, however, it just won’t work. i can’t help but think it has something to do with the upgrade to windows 2000. anyone having any pgp 6.5.8 experience, please help. i’m not giving up on it. it does work, dammit. i’m also helping a few other people do things while i stress out over the sheer frustration of nonfunctioning pgp. every once in a while i overextend myself like...

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Posted on 29 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

after

i’m much busier than i thought i’d be today, so even my breaks are working ones. i will have to update after i get home, and after the bike-ride, and maybe even after dinner. whew. i am taking a very mini-break just to say hullo, though. i’ve missed writing in you, little livejournal. you are barelylivejournal these days. resuscitatedjournal. the good old 06:48 broke down this morning, halfway to sausalito. a little buzzing sound was all i noticed as i was drifting off to sleep, trying to stay awake because dad mentioned how envious he was of the scenery on my commute each morning. buzz, buzz. the bus pulled over at an unfamiliar stop and everyone started making that quick-exhale-through-nostrils noise, the universal sigh of annoyance, and filing...

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Posted on 29 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

one sick guru

i’m sick so no real update yet, just my personality test results: Like just 15% of the population you are a GURU (Submissive Extroverted Abstract Feeler) — kind, knowing, giving. Like Buddha of old, you can be a persuasive speaker, and you use your creative talents to further the objectives of your heart instead of your mind. But be careful that your friends don’t take advantage of your relaxed nature, that’s what happened to Jesus. Above all, you like going with the flow. And there is probably nothing in the world you haven’t smoked. That’s cool. Oh yeah, you like to talk a lot. That’s cool, too. Whatever.

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Posted on 28 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

let go

i spent only three hours with pas and then had to say goodbye again. i have cramps. and my purse broke. other than these pathetic bits, i have been having a perfectly wonderful visit. i even enjoyed loretta lynn in concert tonight at the county fair. no, i’m not being facetious. pas and i drank coffee and talked about the nature of reality, death, relationships, and why the hell we went to niagara falls in the middle of the night to have sex, back when we were dating lo those many moons ago. it was our anniversary, and we got all dressed up and then decided it would be a sooper idea to drive to niagara falls. so we did. the falls were closed. we pictured a gigantic faucet, turned off. we ended up in a donut shop. i had a panic attack in buffalo on the way...

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Posted on 26 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

i survived

the mistake. about 20:00 last night i thought to myself, hm, better check on the plane status. no idea why. well, good thing i did, because i had for some reason gotten it stuck in my head that i was flying out of oakland instead of sfo. we found out that it was indeed sfo, and left immediately. the plane trip. yay, screaming children. yay, guy next to me who had to go to the bathroom every fifteen minutes. yay, that dumbass movie about the saint bernard dog. yay, an hour on the tarmac waiting to take off. yay. yay. yay. … so much for positive thinking. it still sucked. the drive from cleveland to meadville. who am i kidding, this was the easiest part yet. me and my dad in the car, gabbing. one of the finer things in life. the greeting from the black lab,...

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Posted on 24 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

fill in the blank

today i am the ____________ person on the planet. my answer: least reassuring. i skipped lunch (and it was with dan, too, dammit) so i can leave an hour early, get the fuck home, and chill the fuck out. i am so mad at myself for freaking so much, but i always freak. every single time i leave to go on a trip, i freak. and i snap. snappity-snap. snap at people, snap inside. my head’s in a trillion pieces, and if i could count that high i’d yell at each and every one of them. get back in line! i don’t have time for this! the worst part of all this is i am so happy to be visiting pennsylvania. i’m just asphalted with crap. i’ll be much nicer from there. so, not going to check in online from home before my plane leaves … i’ll...

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Posted on 23 Aug 2000 | Comments Off

half-off

it’s the twenty-third of august. that means: happy half-birthday to me.

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Posted on 23 Aug 2000 | Comments Off