do you want to know
do you want to know how i live well i will tell you i live with a small cat in a small room and there are things not mine in a corner and there are things not mine in another corner and i do not remember what is mine and what is yours or what is trash the boxes bags all look like they could still be mine or someone else’s or yours do you want to know how i talk i will tell you i use too many likes and i use too many ums and my hands attempt to keep stationary because that is the surefire sign that you are a WOP says junior-high voice inside and yet they can’t so they strangle each other often like little murderous birds or hide gnomelike under my chin do you want to know how i think well i will tell you i think all over the place i think in a big...
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Copying and pasting email I just sent: Just heard from my dad — the cardiac catheterization today went fine, the artificial valve is functioning as it is supposed to be, no blockage, and the nuclear stress test results we were so worried about turned out to be a FALSE POSITIVE! He is being discharged right now. All is well. Thank you to everyone who kept my dad in your thoughts and prayers, and thank you to those wonderful people who expressed your support via email or phone calls. I should have known that even when I feel isolated, I’ve got many wonderful people pulling for me and my loved ones. Current mood: Current music:
Read Moreevery now and then i fall apart
Nothing to say except to ask you all for your good thoughts for my dad. As some of you know, he underwent cardiac valve replacement surgery plus a triple bypass two years ago this April. He has been doing great since then. A few months ago, he began to experience some arrhythmia, and went in for further tests. It turns out that a bit of blood might be pooling in one of the chambers of his heart, caused by minor leakage by the artificial valve. Tomorrow he goes in for a cardiac catheterization, and we’ll know more. The “more” could be that he needs a stent, or more surgery, or … or I don’t know. I just don’t know. I haven’t wanted to talk about it because I don’t want it to be real. I don’t want it to...
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Dear Diary: Today I was just sitting on the shelf, contemplating how many of those ugly Hello Kitty shower radios have sold since I’ve been here in the Electronics ‘N’ More section of the Novato Target, and then it happened! The day I have been waiting for, since I was just a jumble of transistors and other shiny things! I was Purchased! At first, I was a bit skeptical. My Purchaser had a darkened frontal display as she looked at me, and her external configuration was all wrong. Very asymmetrical. And there was a metallic lever on one side of her scent assimilation port that didn’t seem to serve any particular purpose. However, her frontal display went from Dim to Bright when she picked me up and read my Important Features text. Then...
Read Morewifi goodness
The world is largely unimpressed by wifi. I, however, am blown away by the fact that I’m on a T-Mobile HotSpot in a Starbucks a few blocks from the MSG‘s workplace and sipping a latte while sitting in an easy chair and chatting on DruidMuck. It’s … full of wifi goodness. Somehow I survived the week, despite even more apartment trauma on Saturday that resulted in Zen being accidentally locked in the crawlspace under the house. I was in furious tears when I discovered this error on the handyman’s part, and while I realize it was a result of a miscommunication, it really upsets me that my landlady, while sympathetic, is still going to let this guy work on her house. I was planning on heading to the laundromat after work on Saturday,...
Read Morein which I confide in you that my workweek has sucked
I felt pretty confident that, bolstered by the chill-out of the three-day weekend, I could handle whatever came next. After all, the MSG and I had spent most of the weekend sequestered inside his house, making and eating marvelous food, chatting, seeing movies, snuggling, and playing “Star Wars: Galaxies” — on which I am now totally hooked, thanks to him. I have a female wookiee character who breakdances and is training to be a martial artist. How cool is that? I love that Jedi are so rare in the game. The MSG actually saw one wielding a light saber a few weeks ago and told me all about it and I just started bouncing in excitement. Wanna see! And so, Monday evening, after a lovely meal of take-out from Eliza’s, the MSG and I sat...
Read Morehuge fish
Quickly, since I just have to share my no-spoiler assessment of “Big Fish”: I cried for almost an hour afterwards. The MSG to me, “That was a very Pisces movie.” Me to the MSG, “That was a very Halsted movie.” This movie should be required viewing for every human being. It’s tied with “Lost in Translation” as my favorite movie of all time. Now on to “An Evening With Al Franken” … Current mood: Current music:
Read Morea blue thought on red hair
Waking up, your hair across my lips occurs to me like a random thought, like remembering the birthday of someone whose last name I’ve forgotten. It’s red, your hair, in this light; red that people call auburn, or ash-brown embers, or fiery chestnut. People have so many words for what I see as a color uniquely you, the way it trickles off brightly at your sideburns, the way it darkens underneath at your nape. Never have I been so enthralled with the scent of a scalp in sleep, nor so drawn to touch and kiss you awake, as I am this moment. You feel me move and pull me by my hand so I am against, nearly over your back, watching your face. Sleep a little longer, your smile-lines say, then wake me up. Silently, I agree by kissing your hair, and I...
Read Morethe last happy hour
We’re standing so close to the chain-link fence. I haven’t thought about how much I hate these chain-link fences in a while, but then I focus back on the side of his face and he is making me laugh and she’s laughing too and there’s no time to think about fences. On the other side of the fence is the A&W. I used to go there in another life for chili dogs, but not for root beer, even though everyone says their root beer is great. I don’t drink root beer because of the carbonation; I don’t drink many things because of the carbonation. Sometimes we’d walk over and talk and get a chili dog or two. I remember that. We’d laugh and inspect the dining room of the A&W and nothing would be bright enough. Inside...
Read Morethe jake is creepy game
Carinah says, “Okay, joing. Who is creepier: Jake Gyllenhaal or Gary Sinise with his hair all messed up and big circles under his eyes.” joing says, “I’ve never seen Gary Sinise look like that!” Druid says, “Gary Sinise is creepier. I mean, no legs and all.” Carinah says, “Okay, joing. Another one for you. Who is creepier: Jake Gyllenhaal or Tim Robbins looking all strung out and dressed in a pink frilly dress.” joing aaaaaa joing says, “Robbins in a dress” Carinah nods knowingly. “See? SEE?” joing aaaaaaa Carinah says, “Gyllenhaal is SO CREEPY that other people need PROPS to be as creepy.” joing grins Carinah says, “Okay, got another one.” joing says,...
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