blue thursday

The blues have arrived, along with the chills and the headaches and the wide-awakes. It might be time for 5-HTP again, although I generally avoid messing with my body’s chemicals. I just don’t know what to do. Instead of irritated, I am simply morose. And tired, so very tired. If I could just get to the gym, I think I’d be able to cure the insomnia.

Someone at work told me about meeting a writer whose work I enjoy, how she was horrid and vain and dismissive in person. That made me a little sad to hear, but just furthered my resolve to make it into Squaw Valley Writers this year and meet her for myself. Three of my poems have been rejected just since Monday, which makes me so stubborn and antsy.

Everything under my skin is reshuffling.

About Halsted M. Bernard

Halsted, a/k/a cygnoir, does stuff with words. Her favourite things to do with words are keeping this diary, writing stories, and organising information. She lives in Edinburgh with her husband, two cats, a few gadgets, several fountain pens, and many books.

Posted on 13 Jan 2005 in Diary
  • http://www.livejournal.com/users/michael_va Michael

    So, you aren’t a believer in better living through chemistry either. A workout followed some food certainly makes me drowsy. Being mentally anxious also causes physiological stress can be relieved by physical activity. I’m surprised the pharmacological companies haven’t defined stubborn antsiness as a disorder they could market a new drug to treat. … :-)

  • Tallbob51

    Consider a Vitamin B complex as an alternative to 5-HTP. A deficiency in vitamin B6 may cause sleep problems.