still getting over

It is humbling and important to realize that not only am I not half as fascinating as I once thought I was, I bore you. I remember being not exactly what you wanted. I remember hoping you could learn to love me anyway. I remember finding out you couldn’t, and I remember rehearsing in the rear-view mirror just how I’d tell you off. I never did. I wouldn’t do that. I wouldn’t do a lot of things, like sit down, shut up, pretend it was all okay. The transit strike is unstruck, the world is full of heretics (thank God), and I’m still getting over you, you pathetic little lump.

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Posted on 22 Dec 2005 | Comments Off

but a lie

I have always been two people. I lived for a decade in one place, and a decade in another. The places were very different. I was not different. I was the same. One part of me swam downward and the other up. That has always been true. I love being two people. City mouse, country mouse. I didn’t always. On the train between the two places, I would cry and press my fingers against the cold window and feel sorry for myself. I would make up stories about who I really was and I would act out those stories and, for a time, I wouldn’t be anyone but a lie. Lying was a small sin that could get big very fast, a snake you never saw the tail of. Step carefully, with two feet, one belonging to the city and the other to the country. Gently dance over what...

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Posted on 22 Dec 2005 | 1 comment

links for 2005-12-22

Google Modules Spruce up your personalized Google page with these handy modules. (tags: google portal) Gadgets » The top 10 weirdest USB drives ever I think the shrimp is my favorite. [link via Robbie] (tags: hardware weird) Boohbah Okay, so while in Dublin last October, I discovered this bizarre kids show and promptly fell in love with it. Today I found a link for its utterly trippy website. (tags: television flash) Why you should continue to date me A series of charts and graphs. (tags: humor...

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Posted on 22 Dec 2005 | Comments Off