grateful for bad jokes
So this mushroom walks into a bar, sits down on a stool, and orders a martini. The bartender looks at him and says, “Sorry, we don’t serve your kind in here.” The mushroom looks up at the bartender and says, “Why not? I’m a fungi!” That is one of my favorite bad jokes, although I am pretty fond of just about every bad joke I have ever heard. I don’t know why this is, and I don’t question it. I just laugh. (This entry is part of one month of gratitude.)
Read Moregrateful for manners
All I ask is for a simple “please” and “thank you”. That is all I ask. Okay, that isn’t true. I ask for a lot more than that. I ask for turn signals and “pardon me” and eye contact and door-holding (from any gender, for any gender) and all of the tiny ways in which we communicate to each other that we know our own priorities are not the only priorities in the world, that we know our lives are very small and our concerns for the most part petty, that getting anywhere on time is not worth anyone else’s life, and that a genuine smile makes someone else’s day suck a little less. Thank you to those of you who make the effort. I notice, and I am so grateful to you. (This entry is part of one month of...
Read Moregrateful for nightmares
Initially, this entry was about dreams, but most of my dreams are neither terribly interesting nor helpful. My nightmares are usually both. Granted, I do not look forward to having nightmares, but I often learn something about myself from them. Sometimes I don’t learn that something until I have related the plot and characters to my beloved, who is exceptionally good at sifting through my subconscious. Most recently, I had a nightmare that meshed coworkers from several different workplaces, a near-accident involving 3 small children playing in the road, and an old friend of mine who didn’t recognize me. In each chapter of the nightmare, I tried to convince someone of my identity, of my place in the world, or of my story. In each chapter, I...
Read Moregrateful for pens
The awkwardness of typing about handwriting is not lost on me as I write about writing instruments. While I have always been a fan of the written word, my fascination with fountain pens is only a few years old. I do not remember how it began, although certainly it was fueled by my penchant for anachronism. I needed almost no nudge at all to begin collecting beautiful pens that afforded excellent writing experiences. Since I write most of my first drafts longhand, I have an excuse to continue to collect them. At least that is what I tell myself. (This entry is part of one month of gratitude.)
Read Moregrateful for scents
This is a strange one to put into words, but at this moment I am enjoying a complex experience of scent. As I ponder this, it occurs to me that I spend quite a bit of time smelling things or remembering moments of my past via scents. The scent experience right now is a combination of the fragrance of a pumpkin candle and the pages of a book open in front of me. It has transported me to my little apartment in the Tendernob, right around Christmastime, when my beloved and I first found these particular candles at a bookstore. In my little apartment, I would light the candle and read by it, drifting off with my nose in the book. It isn’t all charming vignettes, however. Once I purchased the exact same deodorant brand I used in high school, and what ensued...
Read Moregrateful for the internet
Tonight I am grateful for the Internet, as without it I would not have attended my friends’ wedding today because I wouldn’t have met them. As I am exceedingly poor at distinguishing the subtleties of the theory of causality, I shouldn’t make suppositions like this one: I wouldn’t even be in California were it not for the Internet. Ah, determinism! Philosophical concepts aside, I have been blessed with a richness of friendships and careers through the ease of interpersonal connection provided by the Internet, and my life is all the better for it. (This entry is part of one month of gratitude.)
Read Moregrateful for san francisco
Nine years ago, I had no idea what to expect. I moved to San Francisco, sight unseen, with a tenuous job and a temporary apartment. Through perseverance and luck, I was able to parlay a series of complications into a stable life in one of the most idyllic places in this country, although that last opinion is firmly in the camp of liberal conjecture. My relationship with San Francisco has not been without blemish. I certainly war with the notion of personal freedom winning out over common decency, and I hardly take advantage of some of the city’s more striking features. (Somehow, my presence at the multitudinous Web 2.0 happy hours, bondage dungeons, and Burning Man fundraisers has not been missed.) Regardless, I visit her beaches and parks, wander...
Read Moregrateful for poetry
Exultant, drunk with the little victories: remembering to bring a homemade muffin only slightly less glorious than right out of the oven, flashing my usually-cloistered bus pass to prove my city citizenship, consolidating paper trails into one gleaming paper superhighway. The hangover is quick, severe. Blurry comes into focus with a “fuck you bitch” and I am at work. Because this is how it is in the building of books and lost people. We who work here are the serfs, and all the jesters are kings. — Halsted M. Bernard (This entry is part of one month of gratitude.)
Read Moregrateful for being alone
This is a subject I have struggled with for most of my life, so it is a challenge to write about it in terms of gratitude. However, I don’t want this exercise to solely be about enumerating all these fantastic things that anyone would be ridiculous not to want. Over the years, I have sought out solitude, preferring relationships, friendships, careers and hobbies with a high degree of low maintenance. I have thought of myself as a loner and an introvert, and always questioned my ability to be around anyone else for more than short periods at a time. “I never have enough alone time” became my psychological motto and mantra. Some of this is still true, but some things have changed for me internally, and I owe the change in part to living alone...
Read Moregrateful for family
This is another one of those topics that, as a younger person, I would have called a “no duh”. Of course I am grateful for my family! Through luck I am related to a whole bunch of terrific people, especially my parents. (Neither one likes being in photographs, or I would post them here.) I owe much of who I am to my parents; without their influence, support, and genetics, I (or at least the “I” I know of as myself) would not exist. My parents are very different people, but they have some key similiarities. Both are extremely intelligent, charming, and interesting. Both are college professors. Both are good advisors and listeners. And, despite friction between us at times, both have committed to having mature relationships with me. I...
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