the end of this meme and of my job

For the photo a day meme: a photo of you when you were happy.

Today I am happy. Tomorrow is my last day at my job.

Me on a Monday.

I still believe in the public library’s importance to society, perhaps now more than ever. Some of my colleagues do so much with so little; their perseverance inspired me to pursue an advanced degree in the field. Each day brought a new challenge, and I tried to meet each one with tenacity and grace. I learned more at this job than in all of my prior jobs combined, not only about libraries but about the world and about myself.

But my job has changed me in some ways I can no longer abide. I do not like who I have become and I do not like what I have sacrificed in order to deal with the reality of my day-to-day.

This decision was not made lightly, and could not have been made at all if not for my husband’s dedication to my well-being. I have not always been good at discerning when or how to sever ties with parts of my life, but this time I do so on my own terms with my touchstones of honesty and compassion intact.

I do not yet know what my next venture will be, but I am moving forward with confidence and hope.

a photo a day, day 28

For the photo a day meme: a photo of something you cooked or baked.

Really? I never take pictures of food. This prompt is so awkward.

Nothing to say about the #worldcup, so you get a food pic instead: eggs in ham baskets with breakfast risotto.

… not really. But it made me notice that for all the food photos I take, I hardly ever take photos of what I cook. I would like to change that.

Pictured above: eggs in ham baskets and breakfast risotto.

a photo a day, day 27

For the photo a day meme: a photo of last summer.

I don’t know how to take a picture of a season, but here is a gigantic lava lamp I saw last summer. I am in the window’s reflection, so I think this counts.

Dost thou dare to disappoint Lava Colossus?!

Only three more days in this meme, and the timing is perfect. That’s a cryptic allusion to something that coincides with my final post next Monday, by the way. I am very subtle.

a photo a day, day 26

For the photo a day meme: a photo of you at Christmastime.

This was taken five years ago by my friend and former coworker AJ while we trimmed the Christmas tree. One of the best parts of working at that library was trimming the tree in our lobby each year.

what if i plug this in-- *ZZZZOT!*

I have always loved holiday decorations, especially Christmas trees, and I look forward to having a tree to trim someday soon.

a photo a day, day 25

For the photo a day meme: a photo of a night you loved.

I am avoiding the obvious choice of my wedding, because you already know how much I loved that night. What you don’t already know is how much I loved the night that Hawk treated me to my first omakase at Zushi Puzzle. We ate so much sushi and drank so much sake and talked and laughed and Roger served me my first uni (sea urchin) and it blew my mind. I dream about that uni. Behold:

my first uni

Click through if you want the specifics of how Roger prepared it. That night at Zushi Puzzle was one of the best nights of my life. And now I am hungry.

a photo a day, day 24

For the photo a day meme: a photo of you that your hair looks nice in.

again with the hair

I am starting to dislike this meme. It isn’t the meme’s fault; it is a perfectly good meme. I am just tired of only being creative when prompted. Also, my hair doesn’t look very nice today and this reminded me of that fact. Blah.

a photo a day, day 22

For the photo a day meme: a photo of your town.

My town. My town. This subject is fraught for me because I have struggled with the concept of “my” in regards to San Francisco. Although I have lived in the Bay Area for 11 years, I still feel fairly detached from it. As a result, I haven’t taken any astounding photographs of this place.

That said, this photo captures a little part of my SF experience.

a heartfelt wish